3 Day Quote Challenge – Day 3

My final day with the quote challenge! I love this quote because it helps me keep moving and looking forward rather than getting stuck on those memories from my past that like to creep up on me and try to keep me down.

“If you don’t leave your past in the past, it will destroy your future. Live for what today has to offer, not for what yesterday has taken away.”

I challenge the following individuals to partake in this adventure:

Milford Street
MeRaw
Out of Great Need

Thanks for sticking with me on this friends! It’s been fun 🙂 I hope you enjoyed my quotes as much as I did!

Help

Who wants to help me figure out how to change my blog icon? I’ve googled a few options but I can’t seem to find what they describe…Who can tell me how I change it?? 🙂 I’m supposed to see a section under General in my settings to upload a picture for my “blavatar” but I don’t see this option…HELP!!!

Thanks!!!

Frustrated

I really hate when I forget my medication at home. Since my doctor switched me to Prozac, I’ve been doing really well remembering to take my medication every day. I usually keep the bottle in my purse since I take it in the morning while I’m at work. On weekends, it doesn’t need to be in my purse since I’m home so I put it on my nightstand. Guess who forgot to grab it this morning!!!

I even remember staring at my nightstand wondering whether I had remembered to grab everything. The medication has been in my system for over a week now so I’m sure one day will be fine, but I’m upset with myself. I can feel the anxiety trying to take hold of me now that I forgot. YOU CAN’T CONTROL ME, ANXIETY!!!

I have my Vistaril though. It’s my “take as needed” medication so I’ll just have to deal with it for now. The Prozac still feels like it’s helping me after 11 days now, so I’m mad at myself for not paying more attention this morning. I know I’ll be able to make it through the day, it’ll just be a bit of a struggle. Send me some love to help me get through the day!

3 Day Quote Challenge – Day 1!

I’ve been challenged by the lovely Ritu to participate in the 3 day quote challenge. I’m super excited because I love quotes. I find them inspirational, motivational, and heartwarming. You can express so much in a quote and reveal a lot in a short statement.

My first quote isn’t conventional but I love it. As I’ve grown up I’ve stopped watching the cartoons that made me laugh and kept me sane in my younger years but there is one anime that has kept my attention since I’ve left college and that’s Bleach. I have no doubt that none of you will know what this is and that’s okay. You don’t need to know the show to appreciate the quote:

“I wish I could have five lives! Then I could have been born in 5 different towns and eaten five lifetime’s worth of food, and had five different careers, and…fallen in love with the same person, five times. Thank you…”

I love this quote because it speaks true of how I feel about the man I love. I wanted to do so many things but there’s only one person I could ever love. The scene is so very touching, too. If you’re interested in watching a video of the scene, here’s a link to it. It’s in Japanese with English subtitles, so be aware of that.

To conclude my first quote day challenge, here are those I challenge:

wafflemethis
K E Garland
Life of Mon

Can’t wait to read what everyone else has to share 🙂

Life Update

Okay so I went to the doctor last week Thursday to discuss my medication situation. She did notice that I had been gaining weight (according to my chart) so she switched me to Prozac. Today is day 6 on the drug and I don’t really feel different. Which I guess is a good thing. I don’t feel anxious or depressed so it must be working. I have another appointment in a few weeks to talk with her about whether they are working or not though.

I’ll have to look up the side effects. My feet have been swelling up again lately. I’m assuming it has to do with the fact I’ve been drinking a lot of soda again but after having two medications give me stupid side effects (I’ve been on Effexor XR before and that made me have suicidal thoughts again) I’m a little skittish about the stuff going into my body. Taking medication is worth not being depressed or anxious all the time, and I know that with any medication you will more than likely experience side effects, but I’m hoping to get some that aren’t so negative. Gaining weight has only made me more depressed and lose some of my self-worth. So that was a side-effect that definitely had to go. My doctor said this one won’t make me gain weight so that’s a plus at least.

I’m keeping my fingers crossed about the Prozac though. It’s a pretty well-known medication so I’m keeping my chin up. I’m just relieved she noticed the weight gain, too, and I’m not completely crazy. I am pretty wacky, but not completely crazy! I’m planning on doing another “self-check” to keep up the awareness in about a week so we’ll see.

Book update: I get the edits and book cover this Friday. Hopefully. Publisher said “we’ll shoot for Friday” so that could mean next week Friday. But at that time he said we’ll make a hard release date. EXCITED!!!

I love how this relationship is developing!!!

“I searched his eyes for any sign he was messing with me or lying to me, but I couldn’t find any hint of deceit. I threw inhibition to the wind and let go of the reservations I had been clinging to so I didn’t fall completely, head-first, for him. I was a goner. He had all of me now, for better or for worse. He filled the hole in my heart and mended the cracks. There was no holding back anymore.”

Another tidbit from Disappeared…enjoy!!! 🙂

I made myself tear up lol.

“I felt everything in this momentary kiss. How much he cared about me and wanted to show me as many new experiences as possible; especially those he hadn’t experienced either, not just the ones I had missed out on. I felt how he was in awe of how different I was from everyone else he had ever known and how strong he believed me to be. I felt the love that neither of us were able to put into words yet but both of us knew beyond a doubt was there.”

This is an excerpt from a novel I’m currently writing, Disappeared. I thought it was cute and wanted to share it with everyone to see if I’m crazy or if it sounds as good as I think it does lol.

I hope everyone had a great weekend!!! 🙂

More from my book! And news :)

“I knew he, my fiancé, couldn’t handle me and my issues anymore. He shouldn’t have had to in the first place, but I was lucky enough to find someone who loved me and wanted so much for our relationship to work out. I wanted to change myself for him.” -River Hayden, an excerpt from The Road to Becoming a Survivor.

News: My publisher contacted me today saying the formatting issues are almost fixed!!! This means I’ll get to see it soon before it’s released to the public!!! [Insert internal screaming here.]